Silent Rebellion

My first post to my new blog! The pressure is immense. I received advice from another fellow blogger, to keep it light. No need to empty your soul on this thing.
The first thing that came to mind in keeping it light was my car window.
Some months ago, my electric window in my car broke. When I push the button to roll it down, it just falls off the track, and is all cockeyed. I have to hold the button the proper amount of time or the window will go all the way down and be lost forever. It will not roll back up electrically.
So, I have perfected manually pulling the thing up with my hands. This is scary because it makes horrid noises and my heart is beating because I am sure this is the day it will not go back up with my guidance. I live in Oregon, will I be reduced to plastic and duct tape to hold out the rain? Now you might ask, why not just leave it up and save yourself the grief? Well, for reasons I won't mention, I must roll my window down frequently while driving.
So, here's the deal. I have a friend who is a Subura Guru. I know one phone call, and a drive over there, he could fix my window in no time and the battle would be over.
I have come to realize, I don't want it fixed. It has become my silent rebellion.
You see, there is some kind of satisfaction when I pull and pry and perfectly bring that window up to it's proper position. I am a pro at it! So, everyday, when I park my car and manually manuever that window into it's proper position I have somehow taken a stand. I am an independent woman! I am doing something that is so stupid to everyone, but me. Lately in my world, I feel I have little control over anything. I need that window to stay broken. I need one moment in my day where I am a rebel and I am in control. I love this.

Stay tuned, I may just tell you how I sometimes don't put my attena down when I drive through car washes........