Road Trip

I am going on a road trip in a couple weeks. Heading to Berkeley, Ca via San Jose.
I am totally freaked out about actually driving that far by myself. Not for safety reasons, but I just wonder if it will be the exciting journey I hope for or a miserable, endless drive down I-5.
I get almost sick to my stomach when I think about it. Why then am I going? because I must.
I believe everyone needs to do a road trip by themselves at least once. My opportunity came knocking, so my time is now.
I have a plan. Make it to Shasta on day one. This looks like a lovely place to stay the night. Get up early make it to San Jose day two. I hope to be at my hotel in Downtown San Jose by mid afternoon.
I will be at a Narcotics Anonymous convention for 3 days. I booked a lovely hotel room and hope this will be the connection I need with this whole recovery thing. This is part of why I must get there. I need to feel 8,000 recovering addicts around me for reasons I cannot explain.
I will go from there up to Berkely to stay with friends for a couple days. I hope to Bart over to San Francisco once or twice, check out Berkely, visit with my camp friends, and then head home.
This whole trip could go one of two ways. If I don't get my attitude in check, it will be a disaster.
I felt the same way last year before my trip and had a great time, so it will be ok.
This traveling alone is new to me. People at work talk about trips they took alone like it was nothing.(this very trip I am taking even) Why is it so much of something for me?
But I am going because I must.
jb

Searching for the answers...

It's odd how you can think something or be told the same thing over and over and the light dosn't really go on.
Then someone different will come along and say pretty much the same thing and the light goes on.
There's a saying in recovery, Is it odd or is it God?
The struggle has been going on with me for some time about believing in a power greater than myself. Some call it God, some call it a Force, some call it the Universe. Whatever "it" is, I have been struggling with my faith in it.
Then, along comes the words from an unlikely source and the light comes on.
Is that Odd or is that God? I don't claim to know. But I may have a different perspective about this whole Higher Power thing.
My thinking has been a bit toxic. I try to rationalize my lack of faith but I am counteracted with words of widsom from another human being. Whether this person is right or not, no one really knows.
People spend years searching the unanswered questions of the universe. Many theories are out there and many philosophies have been presented.
I have to believe what makes sense to me and for along time none of it made sense.
I still have unanswered questions about the whole God thing but at least I feel less toxic today.
People who have faith are usually happier, more content people. Whether something is out there or not, I think believing is far easier than not believing.
jb