So, this is Christmas and what have you done?-John Lennon

I have just found out that I have an occasional third reader out there! This is exciting.
Well, Christmas is upon us... It somehow dosn't feel that way, but here it is.
Bush is calling for more troops in Iraq, there are families who have to live with the fact that their loved ones are buried somewhere on Mt. Hood, and tomorrow I am delivering turkeys and potatoes to people living with Aids.
They say all things happen for a reason. My mom once told me, "they didn't say it was for a good reason".
I am sad for the people who have to take 40 medications a day to ward off a deadly virus, and I am sad for the mothers who will not see their sons again. I have to ask, where is God in all this?
This is why I struggle with my beliefs in a power greater than myself. I realize there must be one, but why would something I am supposed to put all my faith in and live my life serving, allow such tragedies? I am not content with the answers I get when I ask this question.
So, I do my best to do what I can to make a difference. Tomorrow, I will put on a smile, but my heart will be aching as I hand over food to people dying of Aids.
These people are the true heroe's to me. They wake up every day and put one foot in front of the other and carry on. They carry a burden I do not know. However, I have a chance to lighten maybe one minute of their day, and for this I am grateful.

jb